oh i miss cedar v much! but nobody is willing to spare a few hours out with me to go back cedar la! wth. like hello chiong back home and bury my head in the book for the whole day? it's not like tt few hours will determine an A. y not just eat and shower with the books beside? it only proves the how much insecurity u have, compared to the attachment to cedar? i duno. i seriously duno. what is there to panic to such a great extent?-if there's some confidence.. well, i guess im the one who is supposed to be worried whether i'll pass or not. with the fact that i keep yawning whenever i start to do work-.- wth i jus feel so frustrated at evrything!
ok fine watever tt goes my regrets. i bet i wil regret a lot of stuff from this jc life. y? bcos of the stress arnd the sch..

for eg, the 1st wrong step i took was taking both geog and history. seriously i hate history right now, and realise how much i love physics! i shld just go bang the wall. i dug this hole for myself. how stupid m i. and evryone arnd me agrees. yes i realise im becoming more stupid starting from jc? huh.

i feel lost. v lost. ya correct i know im supposed to mug for the A's evry single second. but the soul is unwilling? stone/sit arnd doing nth, stares into blank space, dozes off, eat and eat, stone and stone. i feel helpless, i have yet to find one motivation/motivator. teachers r of no much help except to just stress u and make u feel more depressed and frustrated!
im lost for words these days. going arnd with just the stone face the whole day. people arnd me all say i look extremely stress. tt's my face.
from this point onwards, no more excitement, no more fun, no more anticipation, just living ervyday the same, dead and even more dead. ya right evryone agrees i drift arnd like a corpse in sch everyday evry single second. another reason is also bcos evryone else cant be bothered also cos they r also in their own world now. so evryone is in separate worlds now. so depressing. all started out bcos of wrong moves.

LIFE IS FULL OF REGRETS!