back to the point, i m totally angry/agitated/irritated/depressed/etc...duno how to describe. bcos of some unreasonable issues in the cca
they conveniently DISPLACED me out of the team 1. just to put in their more favourite person so that the whole team 1 can be the clique together. while i m jus conveniently displaced to team 2 when orinally coach wanted me to be in team 1. then the teacher come into the picture by giving the EXCUSE that "we need to balance out the teams, so i put u as a stronger player in the other team". well, as if i would be happy with that-.- so im feeling totally "betrayed" now. hello im the vice at least give me some face. the whole lot of them is totally cliqish! and they do stuff behind my back totally. and i FINALLY got the clear picture last minute. just before the teacher is going to send in the teams.
it is really the people that matters. their problem with the cliqing thing. this is the 1st time i face this kind of extreme situation. and it really hurts. out of the so many groups of people i mix arnd with, this grp is the unable to de, cos they simply shut themselves away from u.
1 more thing. whenever i talk to the cap abt anything she'll suddenly put on a dao face. whether is it work-related or wat. it's as if all the work is automatically for granted supposed to be done by me, and nobody else cares.
and the shirt thingy, for god's sake it's the team's competition shirt, i have to go all the way to get it printed and collect it, and the rest jus keep questioning me abt it. hello it's not even in my job scope in the 1st place! seriously im totally absolutely convinced that not a single soul is doing anything worth for the cca. and y m i the vice cap!
forget it. im jus going to face it and accpet the fact. no point go confronting anyone. if they happy that way, i dont wanna care much dont come and bother me anymore and i cant b bothered with u all anymore. i shall jus live on with my life the way im happy with.
letting go is the sacrifice made.
wth i totally got no mood to study for my geog test for tmr now. bcos of the stupid behind-my-back thing. this whole thing really made an impact on me, for me to reflect. so,...

-i dont wanna care anymore about how pple just like to backstab. no point digging a hole myself to jump in, or deepening the hole that they want me to be in.
i shall jus go elsewhere to my happy frens who really accept me for who i truely am. thx to those who's always there by my side for me:) i appreciate u all.